2019 Wrap-Up…and a Little 2020 Vision

I don’t know about you, but when I look back on the past year, well…it exhausts me more than anything else. Amazing things happened in 2019 and I can’t necessarily point to any great personal tragedies, and yet I find myself hoping, wishing, planning, and praying for a better 2020

Truthfully, the battles waged in my life in 2019 were all pretty much happening within my mind. It was a year in which I questioned my calling, evaluated my worth, and generally doubted myself at every turn. Despite the fact that life is actually really good. My family is healthy, my marriage is strong, my sons are proving to be remarkable young men, I have amazing friendships, my “day job” in full-time church ministry is going strong, and I released one book I love and wrote another. I’m blessed! And yet…I doubt. I question. I evaluate. And I hope, wish, plan, and pray for better.

How about you? Can you identify with my personal take on 2019?

I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions, as such. In my experience, I’m no more likely to exercise regularly/eat healthier/save money/whatever on January 1st than I was on December 31st. But that hasn’t stopped me from taking small, intentional steps toward starting 2020 off right. I want to manage my time better. I want to make the most of whatever time I have to do whatever thing I need to be doing. I want to, more than ever before, keep Jesus at the center of it all. I do want to eat healthier, exercise (semi-) regularly, and manage my money better. But, you know what? Those are all things I plan to do every year. Some years I succeed more than others. 

What I really want to be different about 2020 is how boldly I live my life. I want to dream big and work hard to put those dreams into action. I want to stop doubting myself so much. Truthfully, I want to stop thinking about myself so much, across the board. I want to do more for others. I want to do more than just meet people. I want to connect with them. I want people to smile when they see me coming, because they know I won’t be dumping stress and angst and self-doubt at their feet, because stress, angst, and self-doubt won’t be part of who I am. Publicly or privately.

We’ve all heard it said that hindsight is 20/20, but sitting here on December 28th, looking back on 2019, all I can think about is how much time and energy I wasted, trying to squint the year into focus. I don’t want that to be the case next year. I don’t want to waste all that time and energy. I want to approach the year with laser focus, from the very beginning, and not have to wait for hindsight to kick in. 

It’s 2020. It should be perfectly clear from day one.

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Bethany Turner is the bestselling, award-winning author of romantic comedies such as Plot Twist and The Do-Over. She has been writing since the second grade, when she won her first writing award for explaining why, if she could have lunch with any person throughout history, she would choose John Stamos. She stands by this decision. Bethany now writes pop culture–infused rom-coms for a new generation of readers who crave fiction that tackles the thorny issues of life with humor and insight. She lives in Southwest Colorado with her husband, whom she met in the nineties in a chat room called Disco Inferno. As sketchy as it sounds, it worked out pretty well in this case, and they are now the proud parents of two teenagers. Connect with Bethany at seebethanywrite.com or across social media @seebethanywrite, where she clings to the eternal dream that John Stamos will someday send her a friend request.